Who am I? In-Depth Self-Review

You Want Me To Do What?In the spirit of admitting where you are before heading off in a new direction and getting lost because you’re starting from the wrong place, here is my “You Are Here” dot on the map.

I am:
intelligent
open (that one gave me a moment’s pause)
caring
benevolent
dramatic
good at ritual
insightful
aggressive
dominant
sensual
sexual
attractive
comfortable
a good person
intuitive
spiritual
educated
intense
focused
driven
confused
lost
a good problem solver
a good goal setter/achiever
validating to others
nurturing to others
a good business woman
a good negotiator
an intuitive, Socratic counselor
psychic
a healer
broken
sad
tired
protective (of myself and others)
shielded
emotionally stunted
loving
kind
focused on the outside world’s perception of me
scared that the world and the people in it will hurt me more
Afraid of people when they get angry
a great public speaker
personable
multiple-personaes depending on the situation
have a low tolerance for bullshit and superficiality
fun-loving
outgoing
have only societally-induced inhibitions
comfortable with my body
a free spirit
the queen of manifestation
a great motivator
a great teacher
a good writer
good at seeing the big picture and how things fit together
a good planner/organizer
a good dancer
a good singer
a decent piano-player
a good song-writer
honest
forthright
tactful
diplomatic
sincere
complicated
a study in dichotomies
wise
afraid
courageous
a talented jewelry designer
radiant
charming
a good masseuse
impatient (sometimes)
self-deluding
abundant
healthy
a good friend (issues here too)
capable of being refined, but usually choose not to be
Comfortably casual
accepting of others
mostly non-judgemental
discerning
a good judge of character
a great decorator
creative
powerful
expressive
laughter that is contagious
an empath
self-abusive
relaxed
easy-going
stressed
in need of time alone
careful in matters of love
reckless in matters of love
inherently optimistic (in regards to the outside world)
inherently pessimistic (in regards to myself)
bad with emotionally-charged power struggles
intimidating
intimidated by the scope of what I feel my life’s work is
unsure
hurt

I want to be:
nurturing to myself
validating to myself
emotionally available
focused on my perception of me
trusting that I will be loved
OK with people being angry without having to own it
OK with being me all the time – authentic
thinner and healthier, more in shape
honest with myself about my own issues
accepting of myself
completely non-judgemental
trusting of myself
balanced in matters of love
accepting of things the way they are without good/bad labels
Able to better handle power-struggle issues

* This is part of an ongoing series of posts detailing what happened on a spiritual pilgrimage that I took in 2002. To start from the beginning, go to July 2, 2013. To see the entire spiritual journey as it gets published, click on the category “You Want Me To Do WHAT?!!?” to see all of the posts.

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