OK, it’s official, I’m going stir crazy. I’ve spent way too much time in this place. The animals are starting to consider me one of them. And I’m starting to believe it. Bill and Amy left me a Metro pass and a guide to DC, but I hate going into the city. The crowds, etc. are a lot to handle alone. Plus, there aren’t many things in DC that I haven’t seen before (having grown up in Baltimore). Plus, for some reason all the people I have arranged to see while I am down here are either blowing me off or all want to see me on Friday night. So it seems that Friday night and Saturday will be very busy, and in the meantime, I’ll be a little Gollum here talking to myself about my precious book and job searches. Sigh. I could get out and do something. Maybe a movie. Of course, that’s not human interaction either. And I don’t think I know where to find a theater around here. I’ve been craving Dunkin Donuts coffee for days, but have no idea where to find them. I suppose I could look them up and go find one, but that seems like way too much effort for coffee. I could re-frame it as a quest for sanity, but that seems a little melodramatic.
(Update 2014 – Wow looking at this makes me so sad. Clearly I knew what my needs were, but I was just unable to take care of myself. It all seemed “too hard”. And I realize that much of my life was spent thinking that way. I wonder if that was how I integrated my mother into me. When I asked Mom to do something to make me feel better as a child, I was blown off more often than not, for something deemed “more important” or told to go read a book to escape my feelings. Seems I learned those lessons a little too well. Thankfully, I’ve had 11 years to unwind those behaviors and now when I’m feeling stir crazy, I take myself out and get the interactions that I need.)
So, I’m off to work on the book again. For all the work I’ve been doing on it, I don’t seem to be getting a lot accomplished….
* This is part of an ongoing series of posts detailing what happened on a spiritual pilgrimage that I took in 2002. To start from the beginning, go to July 2, 2013. To see the entire spiritual journey as it gets published, click on the category “You Want Me To Do WHAT?!!?” to see all of the posts.