I am massively depressed. I feel like I can’t wade through things. I’m overwhelmed and I’m not even sure why. It seems like everyone is in some state of crisis and needing my help and I have very little to offer because I need help and I’m just not getting it. Daniel did some wonderful energy work on me the other day, but I still need more. My taps are really low.
I’m feeling untethered, adrift, lost. My life seems to be falling into place, but it’s still not making me happy. I’m pleased, but I can’t get behind it emotionally. It’s like terror is holding me back from committing. I’ll commit anyway as soon as the offer comes through, but it’s holding me in place for now. I feel like I’m walking down the same road over again, but I have a chance to do it differently this time. I’m afraid.
I don’t really know how I feel. I’m trying to access the feelings, but I’m not doing a good job. Overwhelmed is all I can come up with right now. I think I’m going to do some meditation on it.
* This is part of an ongoing series of posts detailing what happened on a spiritual pilgrimage that I took in 2002. To start from the beginning, go to July 2, 2013. To see the entire spiritual journey as it gets published, click on the category “You Want Me To Do WHAT?!!?” to see all of the posts.