Walkabout 2002 – Depressed

You Want Me To Do What?!!?Wow, I stepped away from that last journal entry and I started thinking. I guess I really am feeling a little depressed right now. I’m looking forward to my birthday and Sawain and thinking I would really like to spend it with friends. But I’m not sure where this journey will take me by then. Perhaps I’ll ask the folks in Cincinnati if they’d like some company for that time. They’re new friends, but friends nonetheless.

Part of this is the result of feeling like I’m a little off-track. I was given the lead to go to another event directly after SPiRaL and I didn’t feel any compulsion to go, but I’ve noticed that the serendipity stuff is falling off a little now. Perhaps I missed something there. But then I think again and I realize that Caroline set me off on the bit of writing out the booklet and that went so quickly and easily that it had to be sitting there in the ethers waiting for me. Plus, I’ve been meeting a few new people online who are cool and those seem serendipitous as well. So it hasn’t really stopped.  (Update 2013 – I was exactly where I needed to be.  I kind of knew it then.  I really know it now.)

I think it’s just that I’m not getting out a lot. I’ve spent a lot of time shut in Caroline’s and Melissa’s houses. I need to get out and see people, any people. I’m way too much of a social animal for this. I would probably feel better if I just went out someplace tonight. Perhaps I’ll see what’s around….  (Update 2013 – This seems such a contrast to me from another time earlier on the journey – before it really started officially, when I was homeless but not yet on the road and I was staying in a different friends’ house each night.  I was DESPERATE for some alone time then.  How the pendulum swings…)

*  This is part of an ongoing series of posts detailing what happened on a spiritual pilgrimage that I took in 2002.  To start from the beginning, go to July 2, 2013.  To see the entire spiritual journey as it gets published, click on the category “You Want Me To Do WHAT?!!?” to see all of the posts.  

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