Well, I should be on the road by now, but I’m here reading Daniel’s entry once again, reminding myself that this last two months haven’t been a dream and that he will be here when I return. I am looking forward to some time off though. I need to get the work on my book done so I can get that submitted before I dive headlong into job and house hunting. I also need some time apart to really get some perspective for myself and do some of my own processing.
I had mostly given up on having a real relationship with someone who not only could keep up but could challenge me as well. I was unprepared. I am overwhelmed. I am happy and I don’t know how to do that well.
Then there is this concept of choosing who I wish to be. I still have more work to do on that as well. Deciding who that will be in a professional context. Deciding who that will be in my relationships with friends and with Daniel. Figuring out where that “needy” button is and disconnecting it because I know it’s irrelevant. Lots of reflecting to do.
I’m also going to try to connect with family and new friends down in the MD area. I have a friend of Jeff’s whom I am meeting with who does corporate seminars utilizing drums. I’d like to get to see Anna and Jeff again. Want to have a meal with Uncle Jim whom I haven’t seen since my grandmother’s funeral 5 years ago. Also might drop in on the ‘rents. That would require telling them I’m in town. But, hey, I can manage that. So that’s the plan and I really do need to go now since I have an 8 hour drive ahead of me and I’m already 1:15 late starting out. Catch ya later!
* This is part of an ongoing series of posts detailing what happened on a spiritual pilgrimage that I took in 2002. To start from the beginning, go to July 2, 2013. To see the entire spiritual journey as it gets published, click on the category “You Want Me To Do WHAT?!!?” to see all of the posts.
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