I’ve been having dreams about running rituals and casting spells for the last few days. I have no idea about the details of these dreams or what the spells and rituals are about. I only wake with the vague notion that I’ve been working all night. I’ve also been grinding my teeth in my sleep.
I’ll be teaching Reiki class all day today, bringing John up to Reiki master so that the group is covered for their November attunements in the event that I’m not in the area at the time.
I sent an email to Shawn at ACE about going and presenting at their Winterfest about the walkabout. He isn’t sure whether or not my stuff will fit in with the theme, but he did ask to put a link from the Starwood site to my journal entry on Starwood. So it looks like I’m going to be getting more traffic on my site. More people to follow my journey. Good thing I just let go of that fear of people who don’t know me judging me, huh? 😉
I’m remembering a post on the Starwood list a month ago or so, that was from a group that runs a place in New Orleans. A friend was saying that I should plan to be someplace cool for my birthday on November 1st and suggested New Orleans and the memory of this place jumped out at me. So I’ll have to look it up when I can figure out how to get onto the main site and check the archives. At the moment, I only get the digests sent to me and I don’t think I kept the post.
It’s funny how he pointed out being someplace cool for my birthday. That was the farthest thing from my mind. I’ve been thinking about how important it is to be with cool people for Samhain. (Roughly the same time-frame for you non-pagans out there.)
I’m going to be reconsidering at Ann’s. Now that I know I’m on what looks to be a year-long journey, I have to think about if I want anything I left at her house or Janice’s. I think I’m good, but I’ll have to really take a good look.
In some ways I’m feeling very blown off today. I had hoped that a group of my friends would get together to see me on Sunday, but it seems that this is not to be the case. I am getting to see a lot of people while I am here, and I am happy that they made arrangements to do so. I’m staying with a couple of people here and there as well, so I’m REALLY happy that they made those arrangements or I’d be sleeping in Salem while commuting to Coventry, Worcester, etc. I’m just a little sad the the others (some of whom were very close friends not too long ago) don’t think it’s important to see me while I’m here. I’m feeling pretty low about that. But, what can you do? I know that this journey will (and already has in many ways) change who I am and that this change will shift my energy field causing some people to slip from my life and others to appear. I’ve already had a ton of people appear, I suppose I shouldn’t be too surprised that some are slipping away. It’s just kind of sad. It makes me realize that nothing is going to be the same when I return. And that what once was is gone forever. I think I’m grieving a little for that life. It’s kind of weird to think that since I’ve only been gone for a month, but it’s true.
The other thing I’ve begun to notice is my tendency to want to settle down in one place. I’ve been thinking how nice it would be to live for a while in the places I’ve been visiting. Here in Salem, (yes, we stayed another night) I’ve been allowing for the fact that I’ve wanted to live here for quite some time and wouldn’t it be nice to stay. Just in case I didn’t get the point, though, the universe had someone wake me up this morning (when I was due to leave) because they were packing up their car – quite loudly – right outside my window. Talk about your messages, it doesn’t get any clearer than that. Get on the road again, stop dallying. I’m going to have to watch out for this tendency. It is insidious.
It is also understandable. Being on the road constantly with no home base to return to and no place to go for retreat is hard. No matter how much I like the people I’m staying with, not matter how much I enjoy their company, there are times when all I want is to be left alone for a while. This seems to be doubly true for the times I’ve been travelling with someone else too. Because then, even the car rides are a joint affair. There is no break.
* This is part of an ongoing series of posts detailing what happened on a spiritual pilgrimage that I took in 2002. To start from the beginning, go to July 2, 2013. To see the entire journey as it gets published, click on the category “You Want Me To Do WHAT?!!?” to see all of the posts.